NOT WHAT WE WANTED TO HEAR...

We wanted to hear a "YES!"

We are grateful we didn't hear a "NO."

What we heard was a "WAIT."

Ryan's government decided they will make us wait until my 5 year cancer mark of 2-25-16 to make our match official.  So any court date will not be applied for until after that date.  That means for now, our dossier is on hold.  Cathy at Open Door is anticipating a summer travel date for us.

In the scope of forever with a family, these 4 months will just be a small blip in our life with Ryan, but right now they feel like eternity.  We are heartbroken that Ryan has to wait even longer for his mom and dad to come for him.

We got the news last Friday.  It wasn't entirely unexpected, but it was still hard to hear.  

I am working through trying to trust in the Lord's timing and providence for this precious little boy.

My anger at cancer came back when I heard the news- just another thing it has affected in my life.  

This isn't the most uplifting post.  I trust with the Lord's help and through prayer, I will get there, but right now I am still just processing through my disappointment and frustration with this setback in the process.

The reassuring news is that the government has promised to keep Ryan in the baby home and not transfer him out.  Praise the Lord for that.  A fellow adoptive mom who visited Ryan's home says it is a nice place with good care.  I will cling to that as we wait these extra months.

God told us to try and adopt Ryan.  That is what we have done.  The door hasn't closed completely on us so we will continue to move forward and WAIT.